Accepting that a fertility specialist is likely in our future. I'm at 10DPO with another BFN, this is cycle 10 for us. My husband takes a lot of supplements for his workouts that I think may impact his fertility, based on what I've read online. I've never gotten one positive pregnancy test, and based on my symptoms each cycle, my cycle length, and regularity of my cycle, I think things are okay on my end for the most part.

I'm feeling really indifferent. I really want to have a child and be pregnant, but I've accepted early on that if it happens, it happens. I cannot get hyperfixated on this and for my own mental health I need to accept that it may or may not be in the cards for us. I don't know if I have it in me to do things like IVF (cost, pain, etc). I'm starting to reframe my thinking to "are we enough?" if it ends up not being in the cards for us. I don't know. We have a lot of talking to do. April 1 is our one year anniversary of trying, and I'm dreading it.