I think for most it takes time, suffering, putting in tons of effort both physically and mentally, and dealing with transphobia as an "ugly man" until you cross over to the other side as a beautiful women after hormones and becoming your real self takes place. There's many examples on youtube of beautiful trans women looking less than attractive for a while before they really blossomed into their beautiful selves! I worried about the same thing, and now looking at myself in the mirror (without faceapp now) I see the woman I am on the inside coming to life :). Makeup is just a bandaid solution for you right now, you need to fix your biology so the makeup looks how you want it to first. You should try seeing a gender therapist, it really helped me go in the right direction from where you seem to be right now.