We've experimented a bit with the BDSM, wasn't something she wanted to try again. Sex was already pretty rare, maybe a month or two apart from any action. Idk where the fuck the line is.

She was all horny, running all over me once, so I pushed her back on my bed, like we've done before, only this time I held her hands down and started kissing her neck. She seemed interested for a minute but said she didn't want to have sex. I was pretty disappointed and I still had her hands pinned when I gave that disappointed look and said "for real?" After staring at her a few seconds.

She's told me that was a borderline rape right there. Told me I was a borderline rapist. No groping, taking off clothes, or anything other than pinning her arms. Just thinking about it now tho kinda just breaks me down... fuck her. We have a major issue. I need to GTFO.