My girlfriend expressed early on that she had rape fantasies. I suggested some role playing but she wasn’t interested because it wasn’t real rape. Her alternative was to give me permanent consent to take her whenever I want.

But for quite a while after whenever I initiated sex she would reciprocate. And she initiated it herself quite a bit as well. In the rare event that she declined I was like whatever and went and watch porn like a normal person.

One day I had a bad day at work and I was really frustrated. So when I got home and tried to initiate but she said she had a long day too and was going to take a nap. I just kinda snapped. She fought me the whole time. But she’s very small. I easily overpowered her.

After I finished she just got up and locked herself in the bathroom. That’s when I started to freak out a bit. I didn’t know if I hurt her. Was she calling the police? I didn’t know. I was scared to ask. After about 15 minutes she came out with her hair and makeup fixed and suggested we go to Tijuana Flats because it was trivia night. It’s only happened 2 other times since then.