Man, I just want to say I can relate to this so much. I’m not gonna try to downplay what your going through/feeling. I was engaged once. Really thought de was he one. We were together almost 5 years and when it ended it nearly devastated me. I wasn’t even interested in dating again because I felt like I had my chance and lost it. My friends at the time tried to get me to try again before I was ready and it just felt like I was lying to myself. I don’t think people realize that you can’t just stop loving someone. It took me s out two years to try dating again and it didn’t feel right. It’s been like 6 years now sense she left me, and I’m only just now really feeling like I might be able to love again, truely and honestly if you know what I mean. I think there will always be that tiny part of me that will love my ex, it just feels like now I’ve grown enough that my heart has room for someone else. Hang in there man. I can’t promise it will get better, I’m not a seer and I don’t know that. But I hope it does