I wasn't really trying to justify it, I was just giving the thought process behind it. There is really no way someone can justify it and people who do try and justify it with shit like "Oh I'm only possessive because I love you!" is a load of bullshit. This is not what I was doing, I was giving another example as to why women respond with messages like the OP posted that was a little more darker than the silly karma inducing comments that infested the thread already.

I have owned and accepted my behavior and have been trying to make an effort to change, I just got over a relationship about a half a year ago, it was perfect for the first 3 years. I honestly felt I changed compared to how I was with my previous girlfriends, then I started getting all suspicious of her. Little things she would do, comments she would make I'm not really sure what the triggers were but nothing she would say would convince me she wasn't cheating, in hindsight I cringe about it but at the time, in the moment, it didn't feel wrong to me. The last year of the relationship was rough, she stuck with it hoping I'd go back to being the person I was when we first met but that would never happen, I just couldn't. I made attempts to change, I always felt like shit after every argument how I overreacted about something so trivial, yet that never stopped me from starting the next argument about something trivial. It sucks, but I deserve all the shit I'm getting for posting this. It wouldn't be so bad if I was a complete sociopath to where I could at least justify it with myself that I'm not wrong, no. Literally the only response I can give to people who post insults at me based on this comment is "I know".