giving myself a few days then i’m killing myself on my birthday

like i said, in a few days on the 19th. haven’t done anything for birthdays in a few years now so i don’t expect anything to happen so nothing to get worked up about.

also college was hell. i didn’t want to go in the first place and now i’ve already got debt as a result even though i wasn’t there long. sucks to see people i knew in high school succeeding though while i rot at home but at the end of the day i’ve done this to myself. as a whole though it does make it a bit easier because if i ever go through with anything it won’t affect them as much, so the whole “suicide is selfish” excuse gets thrown out the window for that i suppose.

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