So I have 4 siblings and I think both of my parents are narcissistic. There was a fairly long period growing up wherein I think I may have been the golden child. Weirdly with my mom I honestly didn't even know I was because it came with no perks just slightly less likely to be targeted when she was angry. She took me along any time there was work to be done. Many times I was stuck cleaning her bedroom or bathroom while my sibs played simply because I could clean well..She isolated me from sibs by always comparing them to me. I wasn't a tattle tell, but I did get straight As and generally was tidier and more obedient and was always trying to put out fires before they started so it probably seemed like I worshipped her. But I was just trying to avoid the storm like everyone else. It was also my job to always fix mom when she was upset. My own feelings and needs were not tolerated. My only purpose was to stroke her ego and make her feel better. I was a child being forced to parent my parent. At some point I became my father's favorite which turned me into the SC for all problems between mom and dad. Mom began to actively sabotage me as well as spread completely fabricated bs about me being very promiscuous even though I hadn't even kissed anyone yet. Being dads favorite was different. I was his favorite because he had decided I would be his new future wife. He was extremely religious and tried to use the Bible to convince me he had every right to choose himself as my husband. Never actually culminated into rape, but he definitelt pushed alot of boundaries.. My next 6 years was being forced to do everything he did with him all day everyday. He was self employed with ample free time but kept busy and I was basically his assistant. Ive read on here other people's parents watched them sleep too.. For years leading up to his proposal he literally cut off all contact with everyone we knew that didn't live there one by one and they decided we should all be homeschooling. I now know that mom was aware of his proposal but chose to pretend she was oblivious. Now I'm the sc cuz I'm the one who sees them for what they are. I like being the scapegoat better. Sorry for the broken thought pattern. I'm not a good writer