Haha, I can't remember how we got onto this, but my dad said something to me earlier, and I just said 'you know, I think I've just got one of those faces where like...it's easy for people to just imagine their own overlay of stuff going on there. Like I'm constantly getting 'Bela seems annoyed' 'Bela looks nervous' 'I don't think Bela likes me any more because of his eyes; etc. kinda comments which have no relationship whatsoever with how I'm actually feeling.

you are and almost 25 year old adult who has never been in love.

This is a weird way of framing it, I've been in love, it's more that nobody's been in love with me. You're trying to frame it so that the issue is with me so that it's solvable, but you need to be more precise. I have been in love, it's just that nobody has ever been in love with me and nobody ever will, if you wanna talk about it in terms of love rather than sex then that is the correct way to frame it.

Try working on yourself and your hobbies

Done it, I can play three musical instruments, I can draw, write, I'm a good listener, I'm not judgmental, people feel like I actually understand them, people tell me that everybody who meets me gets a really good first impression of me, people tell me that for all the time they've known me they've never heard anybody say anything bad about me. I'm real laid back, easy going, have lots of knowledge on lots of different topics, am never dull or boring to talk to, and I have a good sense of humor, usually I can make ppl laugh real easy. Wait, let's just recap...

Try working on yourself and your hobbies,

Seriously, I've taken this piece of advice already. It doesn't work, please don't ever give it to anybody in the future again, you're wasting time out of people's lives. I was convinced that I could just like, become a decent person and things would follow that. I was wrong, I was so hopeful and optimistic, but I was wrong. Please don't give people that advice, it's not good advice.

and start approaching other people just for practice.

I did this, it worked out really well, I thought like, people would want me to go away but I was amazed at how quickly people welcome you into your life if you just like, go up to them and force them to, lol. Like I say, around January I started suffering from really bad anxiety so I can't really do this any more.

Its a numbers game.

This is another thing. For example, I don't play the national lottery because I'm like 'the odds of winning are like 1 in fourteen million, why on earth would I get excited about a game that I have next o no chance of winning?' (I like what Stewart Lee said once, the lottery is basically a voluntary tax on the most desperate members of society). I kinda feel the same about life, yeah it's a numbers game, the odds are massively stacked against me, so like...why should I give a shit?