I've been bad with haircuts since I was young. I even told the lady that. They always seem to result in meltdowns, physical self harm, then I started drinking to stop cutting and so the cycle went on. Now I'm trying to stop it. I figured I'd tell her I'm bad with haircuts so she'd be extra careful. But of course not... Luckily I have a couple feet of hair from such bad anxiety and not cutting it so it logically isn't that awful but it feels awful... If that makes sense. But you're right. It will pass..and someone else mentioned getting it fixed..im gonna just have to do that and be the logical person I need to be. But damn if I don't wanna chug alcohol or hurt myself. Such silly thought patterns.