2020 was the year my bf told me to do the world a favor and go kill myself (knowing I struggle with suicidal ideations.) I guess technically I dumped him, but the months that followed the breakup were some of the most transformative and beautiful of my life. I dug in to healing childhood trauma and taking responsibility for my mental health. Suicidal ideations are very few and far between and I am now able to identify what causes them and use them to further heal. Plus as I've gotten healthier and learned to enjoy being single, I'm finding more people are attracted to me. It was pain fueling the transformation though, so not an easy time. Lean into the pain, and it can take you places you never dreamed of.