Congrats OP.

Can I give you some advice?

I just can't believe it. I don't feel like I am much at all. I am no prize. I know it is my low self esteem talking but, I really don't feel like anything special. But he, he, sees me so differently, he sees me how I see him. He really does. He really sees me as I see him and the way I see him, I mean, he's incredible. That is what he thinks of me. I am so lucky. I don't know how I got this lucky.

Remember this.

I have struggled with depression throughout my relationship with my wife (8 years now), and it caused me to feel like I could just focus on her, or on our relationship, and that that would be enough.

The reality for me was that I needed to be dealing with the causes of my depression, and I needed to keep working on developing myself as a person, and pursuing the very things that drew my wife to me in the first place.

I didn't do that, though. I resented myself and wanted to escape from... well, from me, so I avoiding focusing on myself unless it was absolutely necessary. Even though I had the best intentions, I withdrew away from myself and instead focused on her, and on our relationship, because after all, she made me happy, and thinking about myself generally made me unhappy.

It did a lot of damage to our relationship. Things are getting better, but if there's one piece of advice I could give you, it would be for you to remember that your husband loves you.

In order for you to have a healthy, happy marriage, you need to work on loving yourself and taking care of yourself, even if the only way you can bring yourself to do this is by realizing that by loving and taking care of yourself, you will also be loving and taking care of your husband.

You're an awesome person, OP. Your husband thinks so, and if you work on it you can see yourself the same way he does. Your wedding day was just the first day in a lifetime of happiness, never stop investing in your happiness together.