I got sick of people asking for advice

I relate to this a lot. I’ve been fighting suicidal thoughts for years and close to attempting 2 years ago. Yet people approach me as if I’m some saint that has these life answers because I’m calm and appear level headed. The irony is excruciating it’s almost unbearable to not laugh and cry at the same time. I wish I had advice for you that it gets better. Honestly it sucks everyday. It’s like having a little monster in the back of your head reminding you what you really are and what you can do to fix it. Idk what keeps pushing me forward and why I keep putting one foot in front of the other, but I thinks it’s hope. Or faith maybe. I just keep thinking there has to be a reason I’m alive right? I have to keep going. I don’t really care about myself. But there’s a reason for this madness. Idk what the hell it is but I have to see it through. I wish I was more put together to give you some concrete advice but maybe words from a broken person helps too.

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