I was in a dark place a few years ago and i made a point of watching the sunset as often as i could. There's something comforting about the fact that no matter how dark it gets in my mind, the world is as beautiful as always. I later tripped on mushrooms. During the trip, colors became more vibrant (as they do lol) and everything was more beautiful. I came down and the effect faded but it never went away completely. I think the world became more beautiful for me because of that experience.

Everyday now, especially sunny days, the world is just gorgeous. I pour milk in my morning coffee and watch the beauty that unfolds as it stirs itself. Just seeing a pretty flower, or hearing a good song...i live for that shit. I make music too and that is straight up therapy as far as I'm concerned.

Im not super interested in marriage but then, I'm in my early twenties. I think a lot of older generations rushed into marriage and that's partially why there are so many failed marriages. Another part of it is maybe monogamy isn't natural? I've read that for most of human history we were polyamorous. That being said im definitely looking for a monogamous relationship.

I truly believe it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved so i don't necessarily see divorces as failures. But idk man, love is hard. Don't stop dreaming