A lot of internal work was done with therapy, and there was definitely some history of a narcissistic mom criticizing my appearance for 90% of childhood, which only spiraled me into worse binges. I don't think I've ever reached a point where my weight was 'okay-looking', and it took finding the root of my issues for me to finally change my eating habits! Intermittent fasted, switched simple carbs to complex carbs, cut calories, cardio three times a week, and strength training twice a week. Discipline trumps motivation. Still have a bit to lose, and overall I think the upbringing with abuse/bullying really took the self-esteem out of me. To this day I have tons of social anxiety related to my body, but hopefully some extra gym gains could help with this! :)