3. I guess I just wanna break shit right now.

I guess I just wanna break shit right now.

Had a good day yesterday after weeks of severe depression. Went to a concert, loved it, hung out with friends, didn’t drink too much.

Woke up today exhausted and anxious. Wife was trying to get me off my ass but I just lay there useless. Finally got up and started mowing the lawn. Ran over the new hose attachment I just got on accident and it broke, then I just went off. I flipped the lawn mower over out of rage, then went thru my yard throwing stuff around. Smashed a lawn chair to pieces, tossed a grill over, and finally stopped and just felt like a total piece of crap. I don’t know where it came from.

Thought I got it together, went for a hike with my wife which was okay. Then, we were trying to figure out dinner, and I was an impossible asshole. She was trying really hard to help, and I just couldn’t hold myself together enough to contribute. Then I got pissed off at the dinner she got and ran off to get something else. Just being a jerk.

And on the way I got one of those urges to speed my car into a brick building.

I can’t stand this. Just sitting here ashamed and embarrassed. And now have to try and smooth things over. Ugh. Still working on getting my right dose of Lamictal. Damn I hope it kicks in soon.

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