Oh I see. No, I'm the one who saved her life multiple times. And even after she ghosted me after knowing each other for 5 years I sent her one last text, telling her that she can reach out to me whenever she feels like she needs help.

We were best friends for 3 years and dated for 2 years. And I took so much care of her problems, that I started to completely understood how she thinks and how she feels. (I know this sounds stupid, but she kinda became a part of me). And even after everything she did at the end of the relationship I still couldn't hate her, because I knew how she felt. It would have been like hating myself. I knew what she thought, so I knew that her decisions were right for her.

And now I'm just scared. Maybe it's arrogant to think this way, but I think I might be this "10" in her life, and I'm scared that she will try to commit suicide after her manic episode is over.