But the second guy wasn’t a good guy. He would repeatedly touch me and try to make a move on me in public, even though I told him I wasn’t attracted to him and would never want to be in a relationship with him. He got me drunk deliberately multiple times. He tried to bullshit me into thinking he was clever and tried to act all smart and almost above me when in reality he failed his end of high school exams. He did not listen to me at all and took it as a joke when I said I wasn’t attracted to him. I had anger towards him for good reasons, he did some really bad things.

The first guy- my ex, he was absolutely no angel and hurt me just as much as I hurt him but I take responsibility for my actions.

Other guys- I just can’t be bothered to engage in pointless conversations. Most are so shallow and I don’t want to waste my time and energy on them.