I’ve realized that any time there is a peaceful break from the anxiety, it tends to come back full force soon after. It’s why OCD and anxiety in general can be a difficult process. Sometimes you’ll wake up, and everything feels normal again, but it’s almost like the calm before the storm, and many people get sucked right back in. The trick is to allow the peace, and when those intrusive thoughts start coming back, let them. The two most powerful words when it comes to dealing with these thoughts is, “So what?”. Allow them to come, and show them that you’re not gonna act on them. I try to look at them like an annoying house guest. You don’t want to kick them out simply because you don’t want to be a rude host. Just let them be, and when they’re ready, they’ll leave on their own. Sorry to hear you’re struggling, but also know you’re not alone. You’re strong in your persistence. Every day you remain just shows that you can handle most things. I try to remind myself that if I can still wake up in the morning, and try to have a good day, that there are few things in this world that are worse. And if you have a bad day, that’s okay. You don’t have to be perfect, even if your brain tells you that you have to be. If you ever need someone to talk to, or just listen, feel free to PM me.