I had the chance to talk to a girl that I had liked for years, and she was able to kill my interest in half an hour

I dont know why people are downvoting you. If you have heavy emotional baggage yourself it's absolutely a great thing that you dont want to add another persons baggage to your life. On the other hand you should get therapy because it is also perfectly fine and possible that someone without a baggage will reject you for yours.
People have baggages and emotional deals that come with them. That's life. It's ok to say no to some baggages that you cant tolerate. Dont listen to the downvoters suggesting you have to take it. No you dont. But know that you will not find someone that has no baggage and even if you do that person will most likely find your baggage too heavy for them.
So get therapy.

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