This post is about shame. I don't think its about predatory behavior. All kids are predatory. I don't think its about turning a cousin gay. All of us are on a sexual spectrum. I think the sickness comes from having to live within the confines of belief. Yes you are a freak - and perhaps irredeemably - at least in the context of the church. People who live in the confines of religion are afraid of what is in their hearts and its sick because you cannot be a good person if you avoid looking there. People like this use shame to control themselves and others from acknowledging the blind dumb animal in their hearts. What fucks you up is having to carry the shame of others.