I met my dream guy when I was pregnant with my son zaylan he was there for his birth and gave him his last name he was so happy to be a dad. A month into our relationship he told me he was an abdl I said what’s that he told me and I accepted him and read more about to show my love for him. About 6 months into our relationship he told me he might be bi I was like okay idk how I felt about that but I accepted him and then a year into our relationship I found a pair of woman’s panties in his truck my heart sank I thought he was cheating I confronted him and he said they were his and he likes to wear them once in awhile I didn’t believe him. We got into an argument and broke up I went off and slept with my old best friend from high school and told him about it cause we got back together then my old best didn’t want me to let him go so I told him the only way I couverture with him is if he was with my partner too he agreed well it didn’t last. About a year and a half into relationship we got fucked up with my partners best friend of 20 years who is mtf and we all had a threesome things we’re not the same his friend of 20 years kept hitting on my partner and making me jealous. Well 2 years into relationship I found woman’s underwear again that weren’t mine so I asked him and he said they were his so I started to believe him I told him he’s trans and don’t even want to admit it so we went to cities on gay pride weekend we didn’t know we were just going to gay 90s he wanted to try being a woman I was like okay let’s try it and see if u like it well he did way to much so we both were like he’s transgender so we kept goin every weekend to the 90 s so he could be himself. After work he just wanted to come home and be a woman he was living a double life now and it was getting hard to hide it from everyone I helped him tell his best friend then his parents and then everyone. I was and am her now biggest supporter she’s on hormones now and is fully a woman and I feel like why did this happen to me cause I am straight it’s been confusing for my kids I’m just not into woman and I’m trying to look past it cause she’s in love with me but I love men and I don’t know what to do I feel lied too and that the person I fell in love with is gone and dead my best friend is gone and I don’t even like talking to her no more I’m so hurt my dream guy was to good to be true I feel so alone