Hey thank you very much. That was really heartwarming and motivational. You're obviously a great and sweet person. I have high hopes for your future. Be you and follow through. Yes i will seek more help. I cannot let it happen that i think badly of someone that has only been minding his own business, someone that has more than enough to deal with than peering over the fence and keeping updated on what kind of jackass i am. I think it is important that people gets information about schizophrenia. The word sounds so bad and alien. It is important that people do not feel like people with schizophrenia are totally alien and screwed. I say this because i might have had this predjustice my self. There are degrees of schizophrenia. Thank you for the AMA and i will be checking out /r/schizophrenia i think it is a very interesting subject. (Subscribed after the episode i describe parts of in the post above. Learnt some important things from that sub immediately that eased my mind a little bit at the time. About 2 months ago i think.) Be strong and not too hard on yourself OP. The mind is a facinating thing. Thank you =)