Had a threesome with my fiance and for those that had a threesome, does thing typically work out for you?

first and foremost, i do apologize for how long this post is. hopefully you guys like a good story and hopefully its not a bad story... About a week ago, my fiance and I had an unplanned threesome with a friend. My fiance and I have been together for 5 years and things were pretty fast between us. We moved in together within a few months of dating and everything was amazing. We both love each other dearly and have lived in different states together because of his career and though we had our share of arguments, ups and downs, we always worked things out and it definitely made us stronger. He's my best friend and we always try to support each other in any way possible. then two years ago, he asked me to marry him and i said yes. however, our sex life has been dwindling and because i had my fair share of exes that cheated on me, i had my insecurities. When we were together, we legit, had sex everyday and a year passes and it went down to once a week and another year passes and it became once every other week and then presently, it became once a month if not more. I felt like i was at fault, that i wasnt good enough. I tried buying lingeries and think of ideas of how to spice up our sex life but was rejected. I would often bring this up to him, asking why we don't make love anymore and why he doesnt try to please anymore and his answer was always, im tired. He's in the medical field and is on his way to becoming a doctor and i know how demanding the job can be so I always tried to understand and figured it was ok if i wasnt having sex with him and bought toys to attempt to satiate my lust for sex and passion. In away, sex was a confirmation that he was still in love with me (i know how horrible that sounds but can you help it after being cheated out before)?

all things aside, he as a colleague who is bisexual but when i first met her, i knew her as a lesbian but as years went by, i noticed that she would mingle with both sexes. She always complimented me and my fiance on our looks and was affectionate towards the both of us. some of my friends think she's more affectionate towards my fiance but that never really bothered me. at one point, one of my friends raised her concerns that his friend was being too touchy and i jokingly responded that our friend was probably one of the few women (lol there's not really anyone else i could think of at the moment) that i wouldn't mind sharing my fiance with. I decided to tell her what i said and we just laughed. a few months later, she texted my fiance saying that she was in town and wanted to hang out so he and i met up with her to have a few drinks. we started feeling tipsy and went to other bars to drink more and the more drunk we became. at one point she brings up how i told her that she's one of the few people i would share my fiance with and how she loves the both of us. we continue to converse and she went to use the restroom. I mentioned to my fiance that wouldnt it be wild if we actually had a threesome and my fiance immediately said that all guys fantasizes about it and that he would definitely be down. I told him that at the beginning of our relationship, i had asked him if he would be down to ALSO have a threesome with another man (MMF) and he shot it down real quick. so the idea of a threesome was off the table after that. but this time around, he said it would be fair if we had FFM that we should also have MMF. I wasnt sure if this was an attempt by him to say what i wanted to hear just to fulfill his fantasies. he asked if we should pitch the idea to her and I kept saying i don't know because we've never done it before and inside, i was scared, terrified, and nervous. when she came back to the bathroom, i went to the bathroom next and he whispers into my ears, and asked if he should pitch the idea to her and i kept saying, i dont know. after coming back from the bathroom, he said, i asked her and she said yes. i thought to myself, well this is an unexpected turn of events.. I went with it but still wasnt planning to have the threesome right away as i wanted to speak to him further about the whole idea. We went back to our apartment and asked if she was going to go out with her other friends as she intended to but just said she wasnt sure yet. my fiance decided to feed us more alcohol and we took more shots and at one point, i felt like the night was turning towards on having a threesome. afraid, i pretended to be really drunk and complained that i might vomit. I felt bad for doing this because it felt like i was being a party pooper and decided ok, lets just wing it and see where this ends up. I decided that if we are going to go through with us, that we should all shower and get clean. while my fiance set up our bathroom by setting candles and trying to set the mood, her and i were in our bedroom. i grabbed pajamas for the both of us and told her that my fiance and i have never done this before and are afraid. i also asked if she has done this before and she said yes so then, curious, i asked her more questions about her experience. she told me that sometime it was amazing and sometime, people got jealous including herself but overall, it was still amazing. She told me that she was always attracted to the both of us. honestly, i was really shy and didnt know what to do and i think she picked up on that and went up to kiss and that folks, was my first kiss with another woman. excited to experience something new, i told her lets go shower and we both stripped naked and went into the showers while my fiance was still playing with the candles. we kissed and touched each other while i soaped her up and my fiance went in to join us. she would kiss me and then kiss him and we basically touched each other all over. things got pretty hot and i was definitely turned on by this. Im not sure how long we were showering for but i eventually told everyone that we should move this into the bedroom. we continue to fondle each other and she was on top of me kissing me and he was behind her rubbing his cock to her clit. i used my hands to explore what was going on and was so turned on and basically led my fiance's cock into her vagina. she slowly went down on me and started eating me out. This was feeling so foreign to me because, considering how insecure i felt because of my exes, i was genuinely excited but then he pulls out and started to eat her out while her ass was up. This was something he only did to me once so that kinda took a stab to my heart. whatever, i pushed that feeling away and he went back to pound her. at one point she pulls away and lied on her back and i felt like she did this to say, hey, its her turn. i excitedly waited for him to penetrate me but then, he pulls her forward by grabbing both of her thighs and continues to pound her. It was still pretty amazing watching this all happen and i decided to get up to grab my vibrator. there was so much passion and the way he looked at her was really hot and i wanted it. i wanted that passion, that passion i craved so long for.. and all of a sudden, he gets up and grabs a towel to clean up and went back to bed and pulled blanket up. confused, i asked him, did you cum? he said, yeah, i did. my only response was, wow, you're wack. he probably felt insignificant and tried to get his dick back up but what was more upsetting was he was still trying to please her. while this was all happening, she was fingering me but at this point, i was so turned off and heart broken. I got up and said i had to use the restroom. i went back to the room and they're falling asleep. i joined them in bed and she put her hands around me and i could feel his hands around her. at one point he tried to touch me and i pushed him away. i was so upset. upset that he hasnt given me that passion in a really long time, upset that he only stared at her while he pounded her, upset that he only gave her attention, upset that he disregarded me and upset that he was so down to please her when i felt like i had to beg him to please me and he still didnt do it. mind you, i've always pleased him, sucked him dry, tried to find new and exciting alternatives so it wasnt like something i asked but didnt give. That night, i couldnt sleep at all and got up to grab a drink of water. it felt like he wasnt sleeping either because once i got up, he got up too and touched my arm and i pushed him away. not sure if our friend felt awkward but in the middle of the night, she got up to sleep on the couch and i told her that its fine if she comes back to join us in bed but she said that it was too hot and needed some air. that night felt like the longest night in my life and eventually it was morning. my fiance got up to get ready for work and when he was ready to leave, he came to me and said he made me a shake and that he loved me. i just grunted and didnt say anything else. after he left, i cried. i knew our friend was still sleeping on the couch so i didnt want her to see me so distraught and acted normal.

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