one of my first hallucinations (over 8 years ago) that i can remember right now: i was laying outside underneath a tree and seeing thousands of red eyes glaring down at me. they were supposed to be monkeys. they were not evil but they were guarding a large gate that separated me from the underworld.

one of those early psychotic spidoes was a spirit whose head was encased in a rigid, metal ball, and "he" told me "he" was the emotion anger. i feel like both of these hallucinations were rifts in the universe and were actual beings translating into our world in forms that i could understand.

the most common visual "hallucination" i receive, almost everyday, is a breakage in the air. it will be fuzzy and black and look as if the space is tearing and you can almost put something in it like a pocket. it can be in front of objects, on surfaces, so on. another common hallucination is the walls will warp and fluff out. i will also see faint blurry objects moving, numbers and letters on surfaces, faces sometimes. i feel like my visual "hallucination" threshold is pretty wide and i think its because i experience the visual snow so objects appear easily in between the molecules. for example i just looked up frm my screen and saw a white, elongated form sort of shift through the air. i am not sure how much of this is a hallucination.

my worst visual hallucinations are actual people. they are monstrous, ambiguous and always hiding and looking at me from wherever they lurk. they are always dead-looking. these are some of the worst hallucinations and i don't eagerly recall them so i probably won't go too in depth.

auditory "hallucinations" include spirits talking to me; sometimes the spirits are mean, or are the thoughts of other people. the spirits vary from supportive to mean depending on the situation. i had a spirit scold me today for not understanding a math equation right. this is a constant reality and the voices either appear far away or up close. sometimes they are a "far away whisper". i had a spirit that just said, "don't tell them that" but i like this board and i like you so i will share what i experience anyway.

"you'll regret this" so if i do i'll probably just delete it :/