I always knew, ALWAYS that I should not date her cause I didn't wanna fuck her up. but her love was just... Idk I thought it was different. Just fucking heart shit man. I just thought she'd love me like always. I can't believe I amost killed myself for her. I loved her that much. I just wanted her love. That's all I ever wanted. She will never understand. She was the only person I wanted to get things right with but I can't place my wishes upon someone else. She's just a normal person. And I'll be of no significance to her soon. Nobody special. I tried my hardest to change for her and become a better person just for her to lose interest completely. It's fine. I don't care. She's better off without me. No matter how hard I try she'll never be happy with me.
It's not her fault, all mine but I just thought it'd workout if I was a better person. Lmao I am so naive.