It really is devastating Im having trouble feeling comfortable around family too. So many of my family members have been inappropriate with me to that fact I felt paraded around at family gatherings like " oh look at how womanly you are now" not in an endearing way like " you have grown into a lovely young woman/man", just really clearly creepy remarks. I even remember this guy who was the finance of my cousin have the audacity to say in front of his girlfriend and family a horrific sexual remark about me ( I was 14 barely). You know what she did she laughed and jokingly hit him, I went into my room and changed out of my skirt and put on pants instantly. Another time I was at a family wedding and a 50 year old couple asked me if I wanted to have a 3 way I dont know if they knew how old I was or underage but regardless it was way way way younger than them. These seem so ridiculous but its "normal" depravity

My own father I don't even have faith in he was weird to a female cashier the other day and I just wanted to lock myself in my room and cry.

My brothers are slightly younger than me and not adults yet but I dont have faith in them becoming not creepy adult men. I loathe the idea of them aging but not growing up, I will absolutely not tolerate creep shit from them, I would call the police on them or any family member in a second. I am always on hyper aware mode when Im around younger people and older people I always observe sort of silently protect. I once caught this complete ped0 at the mall in line intensely gazing at this girl who seriously probably about 9 or 10 years old's chest. He also was clearly a business professional, I waited til the girl left and I literally told him he was disgusting and told a mall cop.

This may seem rather paranoid, and I am traumatized Ill admit that, but my two younger girl cousins are coming up in a couple years to the puberty stage and I am probably going to be horrified when I go to family gatherings and see how they are treated. Their parents do not seem very overly protective which is good in a sense the girls wont feel like there is something shameful about themselves and they will feel safe. But awful because I feel like they are too negligent. like they let their daughter who is 7 run around naked in the backyard in front of middle aged men family/friends, I nearly had a heart attack. I wanted to run up and throw a towel over her immediately, and curse the parents. This is not the right answer, it is punishing the girl and I am just so upset I feel like no one can be trusted. I just envy families that can have a level of trust to foster childhoods without this horrificness. I won't have kids because I will have a heart attack over trying to protect them and it just is not fair to be a mother like that.