Both my wife and I absolutely love being parents. I would not trade it for anything in the world. I love my kids with all my being, I love seeing them happy, and I can’t imagine life without them. They are my ration for living. Before having my first child, I did not want children. I stopped drinking alcohol so my kids would never see the drunk me.
It is the most rewarding thing I have ever been a part of in my life. I feel privileged and blessed for these two kids being in my life, depending on me, and me being able to provide for them. That is the honest truth.
For the most part we live fairly stress free lives. Financially we are able to take care of all the necessities and then some so that helps tremendously. We both work out 5-6 days a week even during this pandemic. We do exercises on Apple TV. This helps with our overall well-being, or emotional and physical health. We still have some time for ourselves which helps us to maintain happiness.
I wish you didn’t feel the way you do, but you are acknowledging it and asking for truth from others which means you are exploring if it really be better. That’s a start and that is good. If professional help I’d something you are able to do, I’d recommend doing that, because you deserve to feel good. If not, I’d recommend taking at least half an hour a day to exercise. While it sucks doing it, it’ll make you feel better about yourself and exercise provides endorphins which will put you in a better mood. I hate working out, from the moment I start. But I do it and I’m always glad I did afterwards.
Best of luck to you.