Thank you so much I've been so stressed that nobody will be my friend in highschool because it's hard for me to keep friends, I usually think like this at like 2 in the morning and rn it's 4 for me soooo yeah it's been a while, I usually drown it out by watching YouTube and playing games like most people do, but it's nice to just vent for a while. I regret alit of my past because how I look now it sucks, being 15,165,and no friends isn't all that great,I usually just talk to myself in my head but talking to a real person is so much better, that way I'm not bottling it all up like I have been for years. Like I said thank you so much for your support, it's just at times I feel worthless and hopeless, and is if I'm a lost cause. I hate myself for my past and feel so much sorrow and guilt for the people I bullied before because I wanted friends, but now realizing bullying is not how you get long term friends, it just sucks sometimes though, I've always made it seem like I don't like inviting people to birthday parties, but truth is, is that I don't have friends and if I think I do I don't know if they will show up.

Thank you so much for your kindness and encouragement. Thank you so so much.