If I was being considerate of him, I wouldn’t make so much noise while he is asleep.
I was sleeping. He dropped several things three times.
I woke up sweating and feeling feverish when he turned off the AC. And I was pregnant.
He did this several times in the span of 10 yrs. I always always told him to just wake me up like touching me and talking to me calmly.
But he never ever did that. It was always the “accidentally” making noises shit.
If I was awake, maybe I would see that as my fault. But man, I was fucking asleep! And he’s an adult! Why can’t I just be woken up normally by some normal dude!!!
It’s malicious because he does these things when he is overwhelmed with work, when there’s a plan that needs to be followed, and because I am asleep, I am expected to be up and running to follow his plans and help him work. He never ever accidentally drops things when I am awake, and when I am infront of him. The feeling of being manipulated to be woken up is just making me so angry.
But when it’s my turn to do the work, be overwhelmed with work, but he’s sleeping. He never hears from me. I never make that much noise like how he accidentally fucking drops things.
Why cant he just be a normal person who just talks!!!
I talk to him when I dont like somethings. Why cant he do the same!!!
I am so tired of being called childish, when he is the one who acts like a child. Behaves like a child. Doesnt own up to his mistakes. And doesnt ever ever be shameful of manipulating people.
And whats funny is that he tells me stories of how he manipulates people, and is even proud that that’s how he put them in places he wants them too. He talks about it to me casually like I am just a friend, a 3rd party. Like he assumes that I will be thinking “oh you probably are not doing that to me because im your wife right”.
This is WHY I think of him as manipulative. And this is how it hapens for 10 yrs.
I want to leave this relationship. But like what happens to me always, he never fails to manipualte people to think about me in the bad way. I ended up bein the bad guy. Because they never saw him being manipulated by him. I just hoped that they get to live with him for 10 yrs and see how he handles relationships and communication. He is so toxic.
He is just waiting for me to relapse and blame it all on the crazy wife.