I hate my mother

You would be better off with child protective services. You shouldn't live your life suffering physical and emotional abuse. My ex-girlfriend was an abusive alcoholic and when I saw her treating my daughter (12) like that I finally ended the relationship and now have her full time just with me.

You have gone through way too much for being so young. Harming yourself isn't going to help your situation. You are a valuable person no matter what your mother has said to you.

Try to find an adult you can talk to and see if you can get help for you and your siblings. It seems like you really care about them and they shouldn't be in that situation either. It might be better in a foster home for you.

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