I just experienced this with a woman i was falling in love with online. Her personality was incredible. And we proved to each other we were who we said we were. She lives less than 8 hours from me.
We were on the right track to getting to know each other. But i fucked it all up with my depression and overthinking and now she has no interest in me.
I haven't spoken to a woman in 6 years since my ex. I love people very easily, it doesn't take much. But only after i sense comfort and safety in that person, otherwise i'm very defensive of who i love and open up to.
I feel pretty damn pathetic trying to find love online in 2021. But what hurts the most is when people switch up on you because of your mental illness...