Having an unseen handicap is like fighting through life with the difficulty set on "high" while everyone judges you against the default difficulty level

CPTSD and migraines.

A few months ago it was discovered both conditions trigger the other.

I just gave up on trying to please my family, even with 3 degrees, a published thesis, and playing for two orchestras they don't see me as doing everything I can, but instead see me as an unemployed loser.

Orchestra is only two nights a week for two hours each. To get through it I need to take an insane amount of triptans/ anti nausea meds, then the weekends are spent with rebound headaches.

I just got botox and special glasses ordered. After 30 shots to the head that hurt like hell for a week I get resentful of my family for not caring... so I just avoid them and resent them from a safe distace.

Then if not that, my CPTSD triggers are impossible to avoid unless I remain housebound and without internet.

Thankfully, I have an entire team of people helping me recover, my biological family, outside of my brother, are totally not part of it.

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