Heart Check: How are we all feeling tonight?

How I am feeling right now has nothing to do with EC. I haven’t been keeping up with her the last few days because I am dealing with another depressive & suicidal episode. I don’t know if it is even okay to talk about it in this post because I know you meant how is everyone feeling about the situation with Eugenia. I just feel alone and depressed and anxious about everything around me and I once again feel suicidal. I can’t stop crying and I feel like I am too weak and immature. Scared I will try to kill myself one day because I can’t handle this new life I was given. Crying as I write this and have my phone glued to my hand to try to distract me and keep me occupied. If my comment isn’t allowed it’s okay to delete since it has nothing to do with Eugenia.