Thanks so much, you weren't harsh at all. I am really sorry for your situation. What's so dangerous about having a freak narcissist 'mother' is that they'll find ways to manipulate you so discretely, carefully, and craftily, that you will blame yourself and NOT value yourself because she will somehow make you believe in warped 'logic' or really hard that she's your well wisher, when really it could be one of many things
So I mean, through the course of my lfie as I have seen her live and observed her, she is an insecure person who brings confidence through materialism and superficiality, is crazy obsessed about things instead of being calm, etc, and she thinks others should be like that too. She tried so hard to convince me that she's saying nothing 'wrong' and that it's perfectly normal to tell your kid to put on makeup - but that's not the situation here, it has so much more added to it. was it a suggestion to put on makeup and shit, no. It was forced. It was definitely masked as a 'suggestion' at frst, but if that's all ti was, there wouldn't be an issue right now. you should've seen how MAD and how 'disgusted/disappointed' she was when I didn't agree with her and didn't slap on makeup. MIND YOU, iwas dressed very professionally, with clean, fresh clothes, and neatly combed hair. I even wore my special earring tops to add to it, and looked good to go. the fact that I ddn't 'glam it up' like I'm going to some party was such a problem for her and her shtity 'impression'. In fact, if doing crap matters so much in her career, then I don't want that career. I would much rather become a hermit.