How. How is it at a healthy zero.

My quick summary: married 9 years, 2 kids. Signed up for AM ages ago, then let account die (never deleted) then re-activated about 2 years ago. Honestly got sick of it quickly - too much spam, too much effort, etc. I had much better luck on Tinder and never looked back. Used a fake email for AM, but real CC info. No pics. Profile probably not that exciting.

(As for the "why do I do this," maybe worth discussing - and honestly totally re-evaluating in the last day - but not yet, and also not sure if that's what you wanted to talk about.)

So yeah, I'm stressed as fuck. I mean yes, your comment makes so much sense. And to a large extent I believe it. I went through something similar about two years ago when I got duped on chatroulette/Skype into doing stuff on video and was blackmailed. Google it, that's a thing. The support forums I found were saying what you did - hackers do this for the fear. In their case, they were trying to make money off my fear. But here, I mean, what's their end game? What if they do release that list? I keep playing the scenario out in my head and can't decide between deny deny deny (is that plausible? "But they have your CC info!" "Yes, sweetie, they probably got it from another site and just put it on this one. (Again, without pics or defining info on my bio, could be plausible...) or admitting to signing up and not meeting anyone or admitting signing up just because I wanted to talk to people... I don't know.

Like I keep saying, I so believe you. I just need my emotions to catch up. I was this close to taking a Xanax today just to calm the fuck down. (I did that two years ago and it helped a bit.) I'm still not putting the bottle away.