Yeah, I've thought about it a lot. I need to explain because it is somewhat relevant to your question. My particular method will make me extremely inebriated, and will actively remove me from all inhibition entirely. This will happen within a few minutes, and I'll be rendered totally unconscious by minute 5. Death itself will happen usually within the hour, almost certainly before two hours, but death will occur whilst I'm in a comatose state, with no awareness of anything at all. Just to add, this has happened to many people, and has been documented to have a 100% success rate as of this day.
(I suspect a few people in this sub will be be able to predict the method from that summary, but it's fine)
Now of course, in this situation I need to be very aware that 1-2 minutes is not something to brush off as insignificant. I'm prepared that that minute or 2 could be the longest of my whole life. I have thought a lot about what I'll potentially feel whist still conscious, but I can only speculate because I simply can't trick myself into feeling a scenario of that magnitude with mere projection. I suspect it's something I can never know for sure until it's happening for real.
All I can do is prepare the best I can. I've made as much peace with the decision as I think is possible, and I have countered all arguments I can think of, that what I have just done was a mistake.
I am at least aware, that there is a chance that when action is taken, I will panic, and my mind will be instantly flooded with every conceivable reason to abort. I hope I remain composed and calm throughout, but I accept the possibility that it may not go down that way. Throughout the past couple of months, up until right this moment, I have felt prepared and ready. However it's a line that once crossed, will bring forth a part of myself I've never before had the chance to meet.
Oh, I wish I'd have done soooo much more, I certainly have regrets of my life not being as fulfilling as I would have hoped, but I have been handicapped by my issues to be able to realistically achieve my life goals, or to now start working through a bucket list. I think everyone would have regrets, especially anyone that still has the gift of youth. But I guess... I don't know how to word this in a way that will make sense...
Yes, I have regrets, but I don't regret my regrets.