There were tons of them. I knew her very well and she knew everything about me. It was the most incredible set of circumstances that help solidify in my mind that she was the one. I met her on the anniversary of her mother's death. I found out in the following weeks. Her birthday followed that date just days later. Her circumstances were beyond my understanding and since no one gave her a birthday party I threw one. One Friday I told her about my mother's upcoming birthday and the family plan to meet the day after mom's actual b-day. She demanded I go and see my mother on her actual birthday too. She was half kidding half not do I agreed. I think she knew the importance of having a mother having lost hers. I said alright! Ok ok. I did so and that Saturday I surprised my mom with a hanging flower basket for her porch. I went inside to see mom and found that she was awake and alert but clearly having a stroke. We rushed to the hospital and now she's ok. Another instance fortifying my illusion that we were meant to be together.

My LO life was way too short and she was robbed of her chance to recover and lead a normal life. I know now that would not have been something that we could have together. I just still cannot believe the events of the last two years. It boggles my fucking mind honestly. Still working through and I'm probably going to be for some time. Thanks for listening.