Hi guys, do you any of you on here suffer from ROCD? Obvs don’t need to respond if you don’t feel comfortable.

I haven't experienced it in awhile, but when I did, I didn't know what it was. My most consistent strain of OCD throughout life has been moral/religious OCD. I've learned that if someone has religious OCD, they are likely to have OCD related to sexuality and relationships as well. It's because of the moral and "fate" element.

When I was experiencing ROCD, I kept obsessing over whether or not it was God's/The Universe's will that I date that person. I was looking for signs a lot to confirm our relationship was okay and "fated". I sometimes dated people out of compulsion because "they might be my soulmate". When the relationship started, I wasn't happy. I felt tied down and trapped, and kept wondering if the person I was with was right for me morally. I asked myself if it was moral to be with them, like if my friend liked him and I dated him, was that wrong? I noticed flaws in my person like excessive cursing, smoking, etc., and would think maybe they aren't my soulmate because of said flaws. "What would God think about this?" I wondered. I looked for every tiny reason to break up, and questioned if I really loved them or not.

OCD is strange and annoying because it can morph into different types at any time. So far I've had: religious/moral OCD, relationship OCD, existential OCD, sexual OCD, homosexual OCD, contamination OCD, pedophilia OCD, suicidal OCD, harm OCD (fears of harming others and fears that others will harm me), OCD about food, OCD about numbers, and probably way more things I can't think of right now... The good things about all of this is that if you know your thoughts are from OCD, they are much easier to cope with. Just ignore them.

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