Gay bars is in my opinion a bad way to find a good decent honest man. Anyway I was lucky !! God really blessed me I met Michael in 1981 August 20 first day of high school eighth grade. And there is this black headed boy sitting in front of me that looked 16 , years ago and I was 13. But he was 13 also and was just big for his age. Because he was the biggest sports hero in our school and in 12th grade by graduation, he was so mine !! Hair black is not milky white skin and big sapphire blue eyes. Now we are both 51 . And people get him confused all the time with the former speaker of the house Paul Ryan because they are a splitting image except Michael is 6 foot three and I think Mr. Ryan is taller. That we were together of and on When he went off to college on a baseball scholarship. Then he got married to a woman and had a daughter. Who is now 24 years old. And I never left this area because I knew he was still in it just about 14 miles from my house. So we reconnected in 2010. And he filed for divorce and it went through. And we got married in 2012. My first love. The first man to ever touch me. So I am very lucky to have Michael and he doesn’t age he just looks better and better as time goes on. Even more handsome in my opinion as he was when he was 21. He has some gray in his hair. But it is still really thick !! Perfect hair just like high school. And so he lets me color it and get rid of the gray and get his natural black hair back. I hope you found someone special. Loneliness is horrible because when he was married I was so lonely I almost got married To the wrong man because I didn’t think that Michael was available anymore. That’s just my little story.