Hi! (trigger warning: stillbirth story)

Hi Momma. So sorry for your loss. Your story is eerily similar to mine. I lost my son Sidney at at 23+5 in June 2017.I had the same haemorrhage as you. Went in for an ultrasound. Told me it was pockets of blood and that we had a healthy boy. 2 weeks later, I had terrible pain and my water broke and I started bleeding terribly. I delivered my son stillborn the next day after my epidural failed. It was a fucking terrible birth experience. Really chaotic, and out of control. The sound of silence after you deliver is the loudest sound I had ever heard. It was also a shock to go through a labour and delivery like that when with my Daughter the year before I had the most peaceful and calm birth. I am now currently pregnant, with another boy, and that’s a whole new subject but my OB has told me it was a fluke, I’m on all my prenatals and she says baby is doing well. I don’t know if the anxiety and fear will ever go, or if I just need to make it to 24 weeks to feel better. But just know people understand what you are going through and how scary it is. Love to you.

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