Topic 4: A story I've never really told anyone.
We met in a chat room, we'd chatted in there for a while, then moved to PM. I (MM) very quickly became attracted to her (Single AP). Things escalated as they do and we were soon talking on the phone regularly, sharing photos, videos, voice notes. It was apparent there was something deep here. We arranged our first physical meet, I'd made my excuses with my wife and away I went. There were some problems with our first meet that meant all of the things we had planned were not possible, but we had dinner, had some really intense moments in the hotel room. A lovely breakfast together discussing all sorts of things. It was almost perfect. We went for a walk around a shopping centre, hand in hand the whole way around. I absolutely knew, as did she, this was love. The following weeks were hard, the distance was a challenge but we were intent on making it work. I'd talked about leaving my wife the following year, I'd never even considered it up to this point. We were in a good place and I'd made plans to visit her for a weekend. Again, I'd made my excuses with my wife, I packed a bag on the Friday morning headed to work and was distracted the whole day. I left work early and put the address in my phone and set off. I rang her along the way, we were both beside ourselves with excitement, she was watching my progress on the map I'd shared. I was half an hour away from her house and then it happened. My wife called and demanded I came home. I pulled over at the nearest service station for what felt like days. What do I do? To this day I know that I made the wrong call. I went home. I called my AP to tell her, she wasn't surprised, but hurt and incredibly disappointed. It ended there and then. I've spoken to her a couple times since, very friendly, checking up on each other in this crazy time. Neither of us have mentioned anything about what we had or what happened. I've had an AP since, but I still miss the one that got away. C, I know you won't find this, but I miss you.