"Hold it right there friendo!"

I honestly don't know how to help, or well I have some things I want to say but I don't want to accidentally make things worse. I struggle with depression and some days the thought at the front of my mind is "wouldn't it be easier to just die?" and I think, yeah, probably.

I talked to my friend about this because he's a lot like me, or could have been me in different circumstances, and every time I'd ask him why I shouldn't just kill myself, he'd say "because that's not an option."

And that doesn't exactly mean a whole lot to someone seriously considering suicide, right? But I dunno, coming from him it sort of opened me up to giving things another shot

He's constantly depressed, but when I ask him how he's doing, he'll say "I'm pretty okay! Well, still depressed, but you know." And that always sticks with me. He just tries to soldier on and deal with everything life throws at him while telling life to fuck off while he tries his best every day to improve his situation,

I dunno what the moral of this story is, I'm mostly just rambling..

Recently though I've made a real effort to improve, I pretty much bombed highschool because I gave up, but in college I'm doing things I never even dreamed I could do. In a couple weeks I'll be going to compete in this national competition for economics and I'm super proud of even being able to go.

Just making an effort to talk to people and improve my situation while telling my depression to go fuck itself, has slowly, very slowly, but surely, helped me to see a light at the end of the tunnel.

I've started working, I even signed up for my college's fitness center which for me is incredible because all my life I've made an effort to let anyone else see me struggling with something. Anxiety, depression, homework, I was always doing "ok" and nobody knew otherwise because I learned to lie and stay off of everyone's radar.

Again, sorry for rambling.

If your state (assuming you live in the US) has something like Florida's Vocational Rehabilitation, you should take advantage of that. For me it means free counseling, someone to talk to, and someone whose job is literally to make sure I'm okay - and since I had trouble finding work because of my anxiety and depression, they've helped with that too.

I hope my long ass comment helps at least a little bit somehow, I'm sure many others here will chime in as well, just know that no matter how bad it gets, no matter how many reasons you have to give up, someone, even if it's just one of us internet weirdos, someone out there wants to see you succeed.

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