Thank you. Sincerely. It isn’t necessarily abuse that he is giving me. It’s a lack of support and understanding. I feel very alone and although he doesn’t owe me anything, he chooses to be with me and that should mean if I make a mistake and I keep doing it, recognize that as the issue. Not something that I did once and already worked to change. It’s resentment. And he is allowed to feel that way. It’s hard understanding who is the attacker here and who is being attacked.

Under the veil of accountability, I’d like to think that I am the open one and he is the wall.

I just don’t know how to communicate with someone who doesn’t value the meaning of growth if he is going to keep my past in his back pocket to use against me later. It’s counterproductive and debilitating to a happy future.