When I get extremely frustrated, it definitely gets obvious. It usually takes something that would be annoying for pretty much anyone for me to reach that point, but I can get so fixated on whatever it is that's bothering me that I'm completely useless for anything else if I'm at work (usually, it involves staff not coming in from the next shift and leaving me stuck there indefinitely). I don't yell or scream at people but, like I said, I can easily end up shut off in the bathroom crying for 15 minutes or more. Obviously it's a real problem, but I make it so, so much worse than it has to be.

It's difficult to figure out how to deal with that. I know that it has to be annoying to other people who need help, but all that knowledge is good for is making me angry at myself for acting so childish. There's no way in hell that I would do that for attention, because the kind of attention that it gets isn't the kind that anyone would want.