Honestly, what's the fucking point?

I'm in nearly the same spot as you, so unfortunately, I can't help you there.

However, the "actual" question has very little to do with being transgender, if you think about it.

How do I get used to the fucking pointlessness of the whole endeavor? I'll never be happy with the way I look or feel or am perceived. So how do I stop giving a shit?

This can be applied to nearly everything, and the top minds of humanity have been going at this for thousands of years with no clear answer, however, I would recommend you at least try to read some interesting books. You may yet find some wisdom in them.

Striking Thoughts by Bruce Lee

Meditations by Marcus Aurelius

Letters from a Stoic by Seneca the Younger

If you don't find anything useful in those, then go read Stirner and Nietzsche or some shit like that idk

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