She hates me. We dated a long time ago, not for long. She cheated. We broke up. It got messy when she moved on quickly and treated me badly and then I treated her badly. We reconnected, she still hated me, tried to get along, and things were okay for a bit. She didn't want to put effort into a friendship, and so I kept getting my feelings hurt by her disregard for them, so I stopped putting in effort and she got offended. I didn't like having to share pain from my past with someone who didn't have pain from the past - she cheated, she doesn't get to say she ever loved me and to dismiss cheating like it wasn't anything major just because she got nothing but good things out of it.

She doesn't want to talk to me, and our last conversation was a fight because I told her I couldn't just see her life through status updates and deal with her PFP changes of her and her boyfriend - The guy she cheated on me with and who tried to harass me to literal death. (I thought it was reasonable and I was very polite and reiterated it was my problem to deal with) Her last 'effort' in reconciliation was to change her profile picture to her and her boyfriend when I had told her that specifically hurt me. She then turned it into a fight because I finally lost my temper at her for that intentional asshole move, and called her out on her behaviour and said she was a dick.

If I tell her, she'll claim I'm harassing her and claim fake abuse, as she has done twice already. If she wanted to hear it from me, she would've tried to talk to me. She hasn't, so she doesn't and so it remains unsent. I just wanted to wish her well, because I care about her even after everything and I can't get it out anywhere but here. I just want her to be alright, and she probably is. She has a good support network and she'll be just fine, I'm sure. She always comes out on top.