My dad grew up poor. I wanted to go to a trade school and just learn something and go straight into the workforce but he basically forced me into college. And honestly I'm glad he did and am greatful for the opportunity he has given me.

But I still kinda wish I didn't. I have ADHD so I have to take meds just to stay afloat in class, this stimulant causes teeth grinding at night which causes inflammation in the jaw joint that is next to the ears. This has now caused pressure behind the ear drum to variate dramatically to the point where sometimes my ear drum will invert itself, or when I yawn I can feel my ear drum puff out.

I'm jealous that everyone else in school can do homework normally and not have to take pills that cause a fuckload of problems. I don't know if this helps at all, but basically even though it looks like they have it all, it might not be all that great. I might not even be able to find a job after all of this and just end up with debt and end up at the same job point I wouldve if I didn't even go to school. Sorry if this doesn't help, but maybe my pain will bring you some relief.