For right now, you need to leave ALL women alone and work on yourself if this is the was you generally feel about women. PEOPLE suck, that's life. People are also awesome, that's also life. You have to be ready and willing to encounter all types of people and use discernment to figure them out. Sometimes it takes a few conversations, sometimes it takes a few dates. But you're NEVER just gonna walk outside, throw a rock and find the woman you're looking for, ESPECIALLY with the mindset you currently have regarding women and the feelings you're still holding on to.. Not to be mean, but you need to sit out for a bit and work on that. Because the way you're thinking is dangerous and has the potential to end anything horribly for all parties. Dont focus on looking for a woman when you cant even trust yourself to find one that's good for you. Women can sense that vibe and it's off putting. You'd be starting yourself off all wrong!