Helo. I feel in a different way the same as you. I would say that there is no woman who would match with me. Because I am a mess in a way. But I still get out and date with woman. The dates are actually going well, some of them likes me. But I just don't feel the spark I felt before like 5 years ago. So basically I don't get in a long term relationship for years now. Just sleepovers. It's depressing. I know it's not the same situation, but I kinda gave up on a stable relationship. You know how? Because I tried to have a genuine relationships but they all failed miserably because of me feeling nothing special for her. If you try and fail enough you will lose hope and give up. That's that.